simple love.

There is heartbreak, sadness and loneliness of course, but I want to enjoy these times. I need to enjoy these times. I want to be in love. Beautiful love. Crazy fucking love. The kind of love that deserves children, that deserves to be felt and caught up in. I want that kind of love.

this is not what i asked for.

It's not simple to say that most days I don't recognize me. This is not what I asked for, this disease, but sometimes life just slips in through a back door and carves out a person who isn't anything like you remember. If I'm honest, I would give it all back for a chance to start over and re-write my story for the girl that I once knew.

must needs in life: weekend getaways.

I think we all forget that work to live, not live to work. We need to unplug and get away from our daily routines on the regular. Whether it is a quick day trip to the beach, a one-night getaway or long weekend to unwind on a beach, the mountains or in nature, we need it.

why I chose to forgive.

I deserve the kind of breathlessness that comes from a first kiss or facing a fear, not the kind where I get left behind. I don’t want to keep waiting—waiting for my phone to beep and hope to see your name on it; waiting for you to call and take back all the words you didn't say when we parted. I deserve to walk my path without looking back to see if you are following me in every step.

Playlist for a rainy day.

I'm not a religious person, but when it comes to music it can transport me somewhere else. I imagine my car is a lot like my own church if you will; a sacred place where I play music ridiculously loud because it touches my soul.

The art of long distance friends.

After I graduated from college I moved to Seattle. I left my high school friends in my hometown and packed up and moved three hours north to Seattle with some friends from college. After 8 years away the hardest thing I've dealt with is learning how to maintain relationships long distance. Friends have changed, I have changed, they've gotten married, had kids, but deep down I know that hasn't changed how I feel about them or our relationships. Coming to terms with the fact that we are both on different paths in life was hard, really hard. I still struggle with it daily. I have to go back to the foundation of our relationship, we've simply moved on a little, made new friends, forged new relationships, but our relationship is still there just maybe a different shade.

Hello 2017.

I’ve learned that life is kind of like a party. You invite a lot of people, some leave early, some stay all night, some laugh with you, some laugh at you, and some show up late. But in the end, after the fun, there are a few who stay to help you clean up the mess. And most of the time they aren’t event the ones who made the mess. These are the people that matter the most.